You know what I don't like? People who can't admit that they're superficial, that the looks really matters. C'mon now, we're not fucking stupid...are we?

Back in high school, we all wanted to go out with the hottest girl or the hottest guy and naturally, the most popular. And we had the "perfect couples"; hot girls with hot guys (also arrogant, extreme level of self-estime, asshole, etc) but hey, it doesn't matter, he's hot right? Or if the girl is not so bright, who cares? She got big boobs, nice ass, hot  body!

I guess this is kinda natural because as a teen we're in a state of "idendity crisis" which is fine  I guess. Me...well ok back then, I did have low self-estime, not really good looking and naturally that's a turn-off for any girls. So I never had a gf. Fine, wtv.

Since 2003, I started college and I finally starting to discover how to get girls...the basics anyways. I slowly started to have a better self-estime, I did some charming/flirting moves, that "I'm hot" etc and it was kinda getting working out for me. I still didn't really have any gf, but I have some dates here and there, nothing big. And yes some girls really liked me, but the only problem is that they were a bit too young. I kinda felt guilty so I backed-off and I was a litttle picky too.

Throught the years and now, I've made a lot of friends, especially the opposite sex and I love it. Some I've had a big crush, some I consider as my sister or just friends. Still, no gf.

Now I admit back in highschool, I was somewhat superficial, I asked a really pretty girl out (she's now a cheerleader) and I was so nervous cuz it was my first time etc. Didn't work out of course. But now, since a few years, I learned stuff and I had to lowered my level on the looks and concentrate with the mix of personalities, unique stuff about the girl. Now it's getting more realistic right? I'm not saying I don't mind going out with any girls, she just has to be attractive to me and by that, I don't care what other people might say. So she might be average, pretty, whatever.

So, I have a good self-estime (I'm in my last year of college for fuck sake!), I don't find myself ugly, and I do flirt. What more do they want? What? I'm skinny? So what? Like I said, I find myself good looking so that's a good self confidence. Ok I may be a little shy, I don't talk too much. Well give me a chance to get more confortable and believe me, when I'm not shy anymore, I'm not shy.

Oh and according to many girls, I'm a nice, decent, sweet guy or whatever. Ok well thanks, then why when I ask them out (see? I ask out = self-confidence) they either say "no sorry, it won't work out" or if they do, days later they decide to let go? What? Nice guy finish last? Oh please! Don't give me this fucking bullshit!

So here I am, making efforts (well actually I don't even make efforts) to get ready to be involved with a girl that doesn't necessary look like a cheerleader, being as open minded as possible, doing my flirtings, or "i'm the hot one" thingy etc, and I barely get credits for. And they critisize that guys only look for big  boobs, nice ass etc. Pfft yeah wtv.

They (the girls) always go after someone that makes me feel somewhat "inferior" than them, better looking than me, etc. Wow! hey that really helps my self-confidence for awhile. Oh, and they got muscles, abs because they work out. Well good for them! Bo-whoo, what if I don't? It's not like I'm obese or I don't have bones sticking out everywhere like an anorexic. Grow up! And btw, I do workout sometimes, just not often. Better than nothing, nah? Now a lot of girl would say to me right now, well girls have to eat less and also work out to get noticed. Yes I know, that's my whole point of the blog (read the tittle). I'm just telling my experience.

And a lot of them (girls) end up with some assholes, arrogants or wtv. Some people say "well be more arrogant then". Well that's not who I really am so I won't start to fake to be someboby else. What you see, is what you get. But if you give the chance to get to know better, you will discover more on me.

In general, it's alllllll about the looks (I said in general, I know there are a lot of exceptions). And what about "love"? Does it exist? Meh depends, if it's in the family kinda love then yeah. But basicly, at first sight, it's more of a physical/sexual attraction that makes us believe that we have feelings. It's ok, it's human nature. After all, we are mammals. It's just that we have higher intellectual quotient or wtv we call and with that we have moral values, more relfexions on decisions, etc.

Now I won't start saying "bah love is bullshit, I don't want a relationship anymore" and 2 weeks later I like someone. Like I said, it's human nature afterall.

Anyways, what am I going to do? Well not much. I said I'm gonna stay of who I am. Maybe I'll let loose a little more on my temptations, to be a little bit more of an ass sometimes. Sometimes I say. No one is perfect anyways. And besides, assholes are well better treated than those "nice guys", cuz they "finish last"....pfft haha ok there!

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